i have such a bad habit of just saying things without thinking about them and whether or not they could come off as cringe. a lot of the time i am just stating something and i'm afraid it comes off as me liking something and therefore making me look cringey because whatever i'm talking about is cringey

also another big fear i have is people thinking my beliefs are cringe or something. i do witchcraft, its a part of who i am, i like crystals and candles and herbs and tarot and i do believe in it. however sometimes i feel like people i know who know i do witchcraft think about me doing witchcraft and in their head go "OUUUGH GOD that is so bad thats embarrassing as hell" when they imagine it. because its a stereotypically cornball belief or something i dont even know.

i am extremely susceptible to a fear of being cringe i fear. i regularly get self-embarrassed out of talking about things i like talking about because theyre cringe. it's something i need to get over especially since i want to be able to hold strong in what i practice if someone, especially people close to me, call me a cornball or cringe or embarrassing to see because i believe in witchcraft

there probably are people around me who know and think "god thats so bad" any time i mention it (which is not often i think but still). and that hurts me to think about honestly. that people immediately think of the cringey things i do instead of the not cringey things i do. it makes me feel like i do more awkward and cringey things than i do good things and it makes people want to be around me less (which, if i do in your eyes, i would like to know so i can promptly discuss boundaries regarding this stuff)

starting conversations is so hard for me i never know what to talk about. i hate messaging people first because of this

it feels weird just saying "oh what are you up to" or something like that because it seems basic but i can never think of any good questions to ask especially when its someone close and i already know the answers to all the questions i could think of

and then since i have no clue what to talk about so i don't message for hours at a time for fear of being awkward or annoying or something along those lines LMAO and when it's in person it's even worse because it's just unavoidable silence. i'm not a particularly socially awkward persion either i just struggle so bad with STARTING conversations

NOT in order btw LMAO

GOD HES JUST SO GOOD. hes an amazing wrestler. someone of his size and weight should NOT be able to run that fast oh my god. not to mention he can perfectly execute a standing hurricanrana. hes also really good on the mic for someone with as little experience on it as he has, the crowd loves him too. they love him enough that HHH pit him and his buddy against the actual roman reigns and jey uso. overall might be my favorite wrestler of all time atm

dude he is so hot nobody gets it (many people get it). NOT ONLY THAT BUT HES ALSO SO TALENTED hes got so many highlight reels of him just doing the craziest shit in the ring its nuts. and all this doesnt even come CLOSE to how amazing he is on the mic hes such an amazing heel i always get excited seeing him in promos because i know hes going to say something crazy good.

this dude has so much going for him. he's a great person, a great wrestler in the ring, a great actor.. all of him is AMAZING. he spends his time using his money and status to promote good shit about the world and speak out about the bad shit and i really admire him for that.. he brings his beliefs into a place where people can see them and he isn't shy about standing up for them. but enough about him as a person, as a wrestler hes actually amazing as well!! his most recent fight with gunther at summerslam showed so much strength its nuts like gunther is twice his size and punk could rock his shit for the majority of the match. and oh my god his ACTING AFTERWARD?? THE TEARS?? absolutely amazing

naomi has had an AMAZING run as of late. her costumes are always great her matches are amazing her promos are fantastic.. love everything about her. she makes matches i normally would have zero interest in (like the beginning matches of the rhea/iyo thing) fun to watch bc of her skill in the ring alone. as a sidenote on that, SHES SO FUNNY?? LIKE ACTUALLY ONE OF THE FUNNIEST PEOPLE ON THE WHOLE ROSTER IM NOT KIDDING. she makes for SUCH a good heel and its amazing to see a female heel that isn't just a bimbo type (dont get me wrong i love the female heels a lot theres a reason why that formula works)

NEW... DAY ROCKS.... NEW... DAY ROCKS.... NEW... DAY ROCKS.... but actually they do rock. i think they may GENUINELY be the funniest people on the roster while somehow also out fashioning seth rollins how do you even do that. my favorite tag team BY A MILE!!! i always get really excited every time i see them on screen even when they arent gonna be wrestling because i know im gonna be laughing my ass off at whatever they have to say or whatever outfit they show up in. what do you mean youre sitting ringside at the announcers booth talking over a match while wearing a hat thats the size of an entire flatscreen tv lmao

Oh my god o talk about myself so fucking much its insane. i dont even try to care about what anyone else has to say i just want to complain about my life and how my life sucks when everyone else around me clearly has it 100 times worse than i do. Im a perfectly normal teenager wiith a loving boyfriend and a part time job and a set path into the future and a family that loves me and i just choose to talk about how fucking “awful” i pretend my life is and how much of an angry person i am without consideration for anyone else may feel. I dont even take the time to think if something im doing is cringey or annoying before i do it thats how little consideration i have for the people i love

Not to mention how little peopleprobably care for like actually any of my interests. I want to talk about shit like wrestling to people and most of my interests overlap with my brothers and im just like. Why am i being an asshole and forcing other people to listen to shit they dont care about thats actually so fucking rude i could just talk to my brother about this instead of making people who dont care listen to how much i love seth rollins or some stupid annoying shit like that

I complain so much about everything all the time i kinda just feel bad for the people i talk to the most. There’s no way i’m genuinely a nice person to talk to with the way that i behave i need to deadass do like a complete overhaul on 99% of my behaviors tbh

Like every time i wanna talk about myself when someone tells me something ill ask them a question about something they like instead or something idk. I want to be the kind of person people message first because they think im a good listener. Im perfectly capable of keeping shit to myself but i just have to share if with someone and that someone is always someone who probably doesnt care and leaves the conversation feeling annoyed wondering why they keep coming back

Best part: im not even funny or anything. Im just sad to look at

I LOVE SETH ROLLINSSSS HES ACTUALLY SO PEAK. i love the way he works together with his current faction even if said faction is kinda shit. i adore all his outfits hes so cunt nobody understands

i really wanna see him continue his story especially with that amazing cash in he did at summerslam... dropping the crutches like that was SO TOUGHHH!!! definitely gonna be part of some cm punk vs seth rollins lore which will make for some absolutely AMAZING fights

also i think that having him be in a faction with bron breakker and bronson reed REALLY helped the two of them gain popularity (especially while seth was away on injury)

TLDR i adore seth rollins

IT'S SUMMERSLAM WEEKEND!!! that means it's time for me to predict what's gonna happen 👀

NIGHT ONE

ALRIGHT the first matchup is Racquel Rodriguez & Roxanne Perez vs. Alexa Bliss & Charlotte Flair. heres my thing with this. they have been having judgment day be on a huge mostly win streak for a while now with the womens half of it, and this particular beef has been building for a while. since alexa bliss is just returning and charlotte flair is not particularly well liked at the moment, i think they're totally gonna have judgment day job to hype them up super hard and im okay with that. this will also help judgment day as a faction have its individual members get stronger (esp since finn balor is looking to go independent)

OKOK the second match is with Gunther and CM Punk. i think we all know that WWE fans want to see gunther get his ass beat especially by someone as well liked as CM Punk nuff said

THIRD ROUND!! Randy Orton & Jellyroll (oh my fucking god) vs. Drew McIntyre & Logan Paul (even worse). This entire match is a fucking joke oh my lord... i think this match, if left uninterrupted, will be won by randy orton and jellyroll because everyone loves seeing logan paul get dunked

this is the match im highkey the most and least stoked about. Roman Reigns & Jey Uso vs. Bronson Reed & Bron Breakker.. i personally REALLY REALLY REALLY wanna see Bron Breakker and Bronson Reed win but i have a feeling thats not gonna happen ESPECIALLY Since they just made roman reigns come to work for the first time in 104332949234 years theyre not doing that just to have him job. BUT im not like 100% pissed off because just having bron breakker and bronson reed fight roman reigns and jey uso will be enough to give the two of them a HUGE popularity boost which im content with. also some lore building between them and roman/jey which will make for fun future matches

THIS is another match im kinda conflicted on. Tiffany Stratton vs. Jade Cargill... Jade Cargill has been on a winstreak and these two have been at each others throats for a second. i would LOVE to see Jade Cargill continue her winstreak but i feel like they're gonna give tiffany a leg up on this one so she can get some screentime which im also pretty okay with tbh.

THIS ONEEEE i don't care too much about lowkey. Karrion Kross vs. Sami Zayn.. I love sami zayn but im not a big fan of karrion kross especially since theyre just having sami job to him over and over as of late. i think it would be super sick to have Sami have a super cool defeat the villain moment and beat karrion kross though but im not sure if thats gonna happen

NIGHT TWO

OK. SO. AJ STYLES AND DOMINIK MYSTERIO. i am madly in love with both of these men and i would honestly be so stoked if either of them win. i mean if AJ wins he gets a populatity boost and if dominik wins he gets judgment day brownie points so HOORAAYA!! HOWEVER i think ultimately theyre gonna have AJ win because of how their storys been going

STREEET FIIIIIGHTTT!!! im so fucking excited for this match. cody rhodes vs. john cena again but this time messier and more entertaining than before. i love both cena and cody but since cenas on his retirement run theyre definitely gonna have him win over and over until his last days but they will SURE AS HELL do it in a way that is EXTREMELY exciting to watch

STEEL CAGE STEEL CAGE JACOB FATU VS SOLO SIKOA!!! im SO excited to watch this match go down. i think theyre gonna have jacob fatu win but theyre gonna have the two of them make up in the end of the match for the plot.. we like happy endings here sometimes guys

OK im gonna be so honest im kinda done seeing lyra valkyria and becky lynch fight because lyra sucks on mic and they both wrestle kinda boring. id be OK if this match had better buildup but theyve been doing a lyra vs becky or becky vs bayley or lyra vs bayley like every fucking week and its starting to piss me off kinda so i hope something interesting happens to spice this up a bit (like bayley coming in and beating one of them up or sum) and thats also my prediction for whats gonna happen

THIS IS GONNA BE FUN OMG. rhea vs iyo vs naomi. ive been waiting for this since the last time they fought and im so excited to see what they do this time around since the last one was such a good match. all three of these women have amazing micwork and amazing wrestling skills that i cant wait to see get put to use. i think theyre gonna have iyo and rhea team up to beat naomi and they give iyo the ultimate win though

also i feel like its worth noting that i think seth rollins is gonna come back and cash in during one of these matches for sure... i think itd be great to see him cash in during the reigns/uso vs breakker/reed match to see him turn against his own faction for the money

OKOK so tyler dropped dont tap the glass today and HOLY FUCKING SHIT im 30 seconds in as of typing this and im impressed already

Big Poe - IMMEDIATE PEAK HOLY SHIT. the beginning listing of the 'rules' into the beat is oh my GOD. the entire song sounds SO satisfying

Sugar On My Tongue - these verses are SO satisfying to listen to. the way the background music calms and intensifies is so cool sounding and i love that part at the end where it gets really intense and bubbly

Sucka Free - Oh MY GOD. oh my GOD. this is a high i will be chasing that i will be unable to achieve again. Thank you tyler

Mommanem - SO FUCKING SATISFYING. i love the beat and when the instrumental really starts going it sounds so amazing leaidng into the next song

Stop Playing With Me - Mommanem leads into this song an i actually surprisingly dont like it as much as i like Mommanem but THAT SEGMENT NEAR THEMIDDLE OF THE SONG IS SO NICE TO LISTEN TO AGAINST THE INSTRUMENTAL GOOD LORD!!!

Ring Ring Ring - HONESTLY not my favorite BUT ITS STILL ABOVE MID I REALLY LIKE THE INSTRUMENTAL A LOT. PEAK PEAK PEAK. that part near the end where the background gets mostly kinda quiet is so satisfying omg

Don't Tap That Glass/Tweakin - HONESTLY after a second look disappointed in this one not a fan at all

Don't You Worry Baby - SUCH gorgeous vocals im in love with her voice. it works so well with the beat and it sounds fucking ETHEREAL I LOVE HERRR

I'll Take Care Of You - GORGEOUS. this actually sounds like Angel The Creator is coming down and kissing my ears nobody can top this. my fav off the album i think along with Sucka Free

Tell Me What It Is - SOME MORE PEAK im not a big fan of the first few seconds but as soon as the vocals come in overtop it its amazing. THE INSTRUMENTAL SEGMENT NEAR THE END OF THE SONG?? INTO SILENCE?? INTO A CHORUS? oh my GODDD im busting

OVERALL: HONEST TO GOD SOLID 7-8/10 ALBUM.

i always notice when im listening to classical music/classical sounding music/anything orchestral really that even though i don't really act like it or even think about it, i kind of hate myself.
it's not a bad feeling to realize this. It feels beautiful, like for a few minutes i can look at myself and say "this is me" even if i don't really like what i see. It gives me a sense of awareness i don't normally have
I just think about how self critical i am of everything i do or say. How it even sometimes makes me embarrass myself, apologizing for things that i don't even need to apologize for or acting a certain way i don't even really understand just because it's what i think will make me seem the least cringe. I worry so so much about other people's perception of me while also being so prideful of who i am at a surface level, that i don't even know if i can call that surface level pride sometimes.
a lot of the time i wish i could talk to myself from minutes before i did the wrong thing or said the wrong thing and tell myself what i should say or do instead. but im kind of glad that i cant
i have said and done awful awful awful things to people. Ive behaved in ways that are embarrassing, crude, annoying, and all of that, and sometimes i didnt learn from it and did the same things again. but lately ive been trying really hard to learn and looking inside at all the hate i have for myself while listening to these songs makes me think that
maybe my flaws are beautiful because they help me move on
thats what this kind of music feels like to me. recognizing and moving on

i was scrolling on tiktok earlier (which i admittedly need to stop doing but thats not the point) and i accidentally opened the in-app camera. i was like oh ok im bad as fuck ill take a look real quick and i was like DAMN!!! but then i moved a little and something glitched so i was like huh?? and i looked down at the button and i saw that tiktok had an automatically placed filter

n that just had me sitting there like wtf. cuz when i took the filter off i had noticed it had slimmed down my jaw, smoothed my skin, made my nose smaller, etc.. and that just made me think about how awful it must be for young teenagers to open tiktok and see shit like that. i remember when i was like 12-13 and extremely insecure about myself, how i look, etc and that experience would have crushed me. feeling good about yourself and then having that ripped away when you realize it's a filter is an awful thing for a child to have to go through and society honestly actively pushes things like that to happen to kids.

cuz i mean why else would there be ads everywhere of young hot glass skinned sexy skinny white women and huge big buff pretty-faced men? why else would skinny & pretty be the norm? because people *make* it that way. health&beauty companies and honestly just companies in general make children feel like they NEED to look like a certain x and y standard for the world, that people won't like them or think they look weird because of it. so society says "hey! you look like total shit right now compared to this bullimic woman with makeup caked on her face whom is probably being forced to do this job. buy our products and use this filter to look just like her, just don't read the fine print about how it'll make you feel or what it'll do to your body!" and it's honestly disgusting because why is it so normalized to prey on young people like this.

it's not even just young people either. older people will spend thousands on shit like botox, anti-wrinkle supplements, creams, acids, ANYTHING to get them to look closer to the standard, and it's scary that these insecurities forced upon us by ourselves are so haunting that they follow people into their old age when they're supposed to be chilling in their beachside home with a kajillion dollars of retirement money spent to ease their comfort or something lol not go into the beauty industry.

OK I WENT INTO THIS EXPECTING BOTH OF THEM TO BE AWFUL LIKE THE FIRST 3 BUT THEY ARE BOTH ACTUALLY REALLY GOOD IF IM BEING HONEST. not quite AMAZING but i like both of them a lot.

LAST BREATH - DIFFERENT BUT KINDA HARD TBH i like the vocals SO much better than in the first three, the cuts are kinda odd though. I LIKE HOW THE INSTRUMENTS ACTUALLY WORK TOGETHER AND DONT SOUND NAKED!!!! IMPROVEMENT!!

LOSING YOUR MIND - ALSO DIFFERENT! i love the pace of the lyrics and the melody. it sounds kinda poppy but that's not a bad thing in this case. i think this is my favorite out of the released bully songs so far. IM ALSO A BIG FAN OF THE LACK OF AI SOUNDING TRASH IN THESE!!!

ONE THING i will say is that neither of these feel very Kanye but thatmight just be because he hasn't made anything super good in a hot second LOL

SPOILERS FOR THE BOYS!!

me and my boyfriend started watching this tv show together since we're both big into superhero shit. so its called the boys. it is the homelander show incase you were unaware

it is PEAK so far. we just finished season 1 and we're on episode 3 of season 2. right now im trying to figure out what on earth kimiko could possibly trying to tell frenchie about that weird origami thing she found when all of them went out to the scary murder place. my theory on this is that those things are a signature (kinda like an MO?) of a specific person that she knows who it is but she can't articulate who due to being bad at english and that's why she's so eager to learn it

also speaking of kimiko i think it's EXTREMELY hypocritical of all the people in butcher's crew to be mad at hughie for suggesting that they have annie help. they're upset that she's a supe in the seven but like. FOR ONE, they have a supe on their team too (kimiko), and FOR TWO, annie has shown repeatedly that she is capable of helping them in amazing ways that benefit her (downfall of vought) and them (also downfall of vought). its just like oh my GODD bro what are we DOING she can CLEARLY help. not to mention she can probably get a crazy nuts supply of compound v (it would be hard but she CAN do it and that would be so so so useful to the mission.

OH M GOD ok so portcon was a TRIPPP but like in the good way

day 1 thursday - went in my rainbowdash cosplay, was pretty calm the first day since the artist alley wasn't open, however i got a ton of compliments and some lady at the mall took a picture of me for her daughter

day 2 friday - ARTIST ALLEY OPENED!!! very fun i got a few things from there but not a lot. most notable purchase from this excursion was a kickass asuka langley figure i love my goat i love my goat. i started off the day in aubrey omori cosplay but then because i didn't rinse the wig very well i kept getting pink all over my hands so i swapped to like, half rainbowdash. half meaning i had the wig and ears and makeup and rainbow socks but instead of the tail and the full outfit i just put on a blue dress i bought earlier in the day. me and my friend (who was going as ruan mei from honkai star rail) went to a fuck marry kill panel and of course i went up there because duh. SO many crazy options i had to pick who gendo ikari would fuck marry and kill from inuyasha, stone (sonic one), and guts from berserk LMAO.

day 3 saturday - BEST DAY BY FAR, bought the most stuff and had the most fun events. went to a cosplay dating game panel to watch weird ships occur and my favorite was alfonse from fire emblem x the actual cat in the hat. anyway i got so many pictures and compliments that day and it was by far my favorite. it also had my favorite event of the entire con, THE RAVEEEE!!! i started off as rainbowdash but after like an hour of dancing in a hot room full of cosplayers i took the wig n the ears n the tail off lmao but i ended up staying for the full time. they had a stage audience members could go up onto and of course since i am a whore for attention i went up more than once. the music was so loud and the lights and for machine were so nuts we blew the breaker and went without music or anything for like 10 minutes lol. i could rave for hours, but oh my god i was so happy to get back to the hotel and take a shower because i was SWEATY.

day 4 sunday - pretty much nothing happened on sunday. me and my friend took one last look through the artist alley and the mall, but ultimately we packed up the hotel room and went home because we were both tired as hell

overall 10/10 very fun times. this was my fifth year in a row going to portcon and it was the last year that it was being held at doubletree hotel. i can't wait to see what the holiday inn is like next year!!!

im just gonna come right out and say this has been one of my all time favorite albums for a WHILE cuz let me tell you almost every song on this SLAPS EVERY SINGLE TIME. i'm gonna do a bunch of posts reviewing my favs and some of my least favs and this is where im starting lmao i own this on CD and have the whole thing downloaded to every device i have

Moon Baby - IMMEDIATE BANGER of course as expected. i love this song its one of my favorites off the album, the beginning clip talking about the conspiracy that the moon has the power to drive people insane fits so well with what the song is about (how much he hates his ex wife lmao) and its just SO PEAK. the instrumental is fantastic as it always is with Godsmack (i'll talk about that more later) and the similarity yet difference between the main vocals and the back vocals sounds so cool and its just lowkey all around great.

Whatever - NOT MY FAV OFF THE ALBUM . i adore the pre-chorus and the second verse but im just honestly not a fan of the chorus or the other verses. BUT!!!!!! the drums in this song are AMAZING by far my favorite part of the instrumental

Keep Away - ANOTHER ONE OF M FAVORITESI i love keep away the chorus is so satisfying and the drums are, as almost always, my favorite part of the instrumental. however, sully's voice in this is GREATTT it 100% tops the instruments in my opinion. the exception to that in this song is near the end of the middle section and the end when sully just goes NUTS on the guitar it sounds so so so cool you dont even know.

Time Bomb - i think this song is great but it feels like blasphemy because i also like last by nine inch nails and like... i love godsmack but this is literally just a rip off of last by nin LMAOO although honestly i still love sully's voice in this and i never wont love it

Bad Religion - THE BACKGROUND VOCALS IN THE CHORUSSSSSSS my favorite part of the song by far just putting that out there right off the bat. this song is definitely in my top 3 off this album and i am not ashamed of that it sounds SO GOODDDD!!! i also really love the rhythm of this song especially the drums. the guitar adds so much as well i love the way they chose to time it in with the beat of the lyrics too

Immune - I REALLY LIKE THE CONTRAST BETWEEN THE VERSES AND THE CHORUS! the guitar and the drums at the end too UUUGGGH its SO GOOD. it sounds almost like a fever dream a little bit and i personally really like it even though it sounds odd to some folks

Someone In London - GODDDD BY FAR ONE OF MY FAVORITES OFF THE ALBUM ALLTOGETHER, AND ONE OF MY FAVORITE INSTRUMENTALS OF ALL TIME. the subway noises in the background set the atmosphere so well and the transition into the bass and of my goddd its so good actually. the way it goes right into get up, get out is also PEAK

Get Up, Get Out - THE TRANSITION FROM SOMEONE IN LONDON TO THE BEGINNING OF THIS SONG ACTUALLY MAKES ME CUM. the verses are SO GOOD and the chorus is so rapidfire it matches the urgent vibe of the song so well which even works with the beggining of someone in london being in a subway station. THE DRUMS TOO GOD THIS SONG IS JUST OVERALL SO GOOD

Now Or Never - NOT a fan of the intro sound before the music when listening on shuffle @ night LMAO but the music in the beginning with the guitar is genuinely peak. i also love the drumbeat sm i adore the way the chorus sounds it sounds like a pattern if that makes sense. the melody is great

Stress - PRETTY GOOD but not the best off the album imo. the instrumental and the vocals definitely help to solidify the feeling of stress so i like it a lot from an artistic standpoint rather than a musical standpoint

Situation - i like the quiet moment before sully's singing in some parts- it really emphasizes the beauty of those part of the song and its SO GOODDD and as always the drums and the guitar/bass are fantastic, and for once i think i highkey like the guitar more than i like the drums which is rather surprising.GODDD i love this song. not a big fan of the ending tho

Voodoo - ONE OF MY ALL TIME FAV SONGS. i love the dead silence with the vocals in the beginning right into some of my favorite drumbeats godsmack has done for any of their songs- its simple but combined with the bass its SO freakin good. the drums getting more intense during the chorus and calming downn again makes for a really nice effect and it tickles my brain so nice. all the verses in this song follow a similar pattern without being repetitive and boring and its kinda impressive to be able to do that lowk. my favorite part of the song is the ending part where it repeats "voodoo" its so satisfying especially to sing.

OVERALL A SOLID 9/10 ALBUM!!

i hate lucifer valentine so much and so should everyone who reads this. he's a worse than garbage piece of shit human who deserves to actually rot

OK lets start here. lucifer valentine is a director of literal snuff vomit gore tapes and he calls them "movies". this is like calling a grapefruit an orange. the only reasonable film that ever came from this man's brain is black metal veins, which is a disturbingly accurate movie about 20-something year olds and their (bad) experiences with drugs- which is the only good thing you can say about this dude. he made a good artsy film about why drugs are bad for you. his other more well known movies are the three films that are part of the "vomit gore saga", and I'm gonna start by talking about those.

"slaughtered vomit dolls" is the first movie in the trilogy, and it was released in 2006 (this was a bad era to be in if you were trying not to see crazy shit on the internet, but this was worse than the average shock website or whatever). it's about this girl named Angela Aberdeen (played by Ameara Lavey) who is in a hard situation in her life and starts doing sex work (and becoming satanist i guess?? i'm pretty sure that's another one of lucifer valentine's fetishes. there's a lot of hell and demon and satan talk) to try and make enough money to survive. Angela has bullimia, and it gets worse and worse throughout the movie (the vomit part) and it gets to the point where she starts to see full on hallucinations of her coworkers and other people dying in graphic ways (the gore part). the movie ends with Angela commiting suicide via drowning in her bathtub.

now you may be wondering, how could he possibly make another two films with the same girl as the main character if she literally kills herself on screen in the first movie? easy! he has the next movies set in LITERAL HELL

the second film is "ReGOREgitated Sacrifice", and it takes place, as I said, in LITERAL HELL. Angela is still bullimic and the entire movie consists of Angela being sexually tortured (and regularly tortured) by two succubi, once again, in ACTUAL HELL for the entire disgusting 1 hour and 5 minutes. there is absolutely nothing of value to this movie and it's the same gross shit as the last one. the last film in the trilogy is "slow torture puke chamber" (somehow EVEN CORNIER name than the other two movies btw) and the whole thing is just Angela talking about her screwed up childhood while she gets sexually tortured and it's literally just evil and tragic and vile shit with no plot or concern behind it.

OK, now that we've covered the movies themselves, let's talk about the people. Lucifer Valentine is a vile and fucked up man who takes advantage of every woman he meets. let's start with his sister. lucifer has a younger, autistic, legally blind sister under his care named cinderella. in the behind the scenes cuts of slaughtered vomit dolls, lucifer said that cinderella was his "girlfriend" and that she "wanted to marry him some day". this is disturbing behavior that lucifer is reciprocating back to his sister. he also had a sexual relationship with her, which is disgusting- cinderella committed suicide on december 31st, 2006, and lucifer said it was "because she was jealous" when he was away from her. Lucifer also consistently abused his main actress, Ameara Lavey. For some context, Ameara was a hardcore porn actress and was heavily addicted to drugs. She ended up getting kicked out of her father's house, and she knew she had to quit, but she had nobody to turn to other than Lucifer. Lucifer manipulated her into making a disgusting deal; he would give her housing and food and help her get off drugs *if* she did anything that he wanted. lucifer described it as a "24/7 total power exchange relationship", implying that lucifer had full control over ameara. he also said that the first movie, slaughtered vomit dolls, was born from this deal. he took advantage of her while she was in a bad situation and it's disgusting. ameara ended up getting murdered at age 34 in 2017, she and another person were murdered in a double homicide. Ameara was a victim, a mother of 3, a wife, and so much more to so many people, and Lucifer still obsesses over her today- She's even his twitter profile picture. (disgusting). Lucifer also has various accusations from plenty of other young women in his area, most of them saying that Lucifer did things like ask them to send videos of them throwing up, telling them they'll let them star in one of his movies once they turn 18, etc, etc.

TLDR: lucifer valentine is a piece of shit excuse for a human

OK so kanye decided to release 3 songs off of bully today and theyre all kinda shitty ai slop. only one has potential tbh

preacher man - weirdass background vocals but thats just a personal preference thing i think, kanyes vocals are also kinda dick it sounds fake because it is. lyrics arent the worst but its also really monotonous imo nothing really changes throughout the song until the very end. shit

beauty and the beast - starts off okay, i like the background vocals and kanyes definitely not ai trust vocals a lot better in this one. like preacher man nothing really changes and its just the same thing no real climax its not the best not the worst

damn - i fw the beginning but thats it. not that bad i guess but once again all buildup with nothing at the end of it. the last part of the song also ends really abruptly it feels weird

overall: i hope he fixes these songs when he releases all of bully cuz as of right now these all sound like looking at an empty room with a single chair in the center

bf got high for the first time earlier and he was like "ooh this ain't SHIT" 2 seconds after his 2nd hit and then 5 minutes later he was dead weight trying not to fall asleep on my shoulder ((in a good way dw)) and i was just like AWWEE

there's something so nice about having someone lean on you like that. the way he just hugs my waist and is like "Oh my fos this is great"

and then he went on for like 30 seconds about how great my outfits are and how he loves em and how I always look good in everything

i like him a little bit

you know I'm always like "omg finally a day where i have nothing to do" then the day comes and I hate it because I'm not doing anything

literally I've been sitting on my couch doing jack shit since 9 in the morning [aside from making Ramen to eat]

I ain't got no work or nothing no friends to visit today it's legit just me and it's so boring and also unproductive which makes me feel grossssss

I just showered tho so that's chill

OK so it starts with me, a few friends (though they aren't really relevant) and like an unknown large amount of other people being moved into this weird flat, open space with short purple grass and stone walls with no ceiling. while we HAVE to be in this place, we were still allowed to bring our stuff, and we even have little room things underground that are quite nice but I'll get to that shortly. In this weird purple grass place there's like an intercom system? where they call groups of people at a time to go to "the showers" (not sure where the door to get there is tbh). obviously since there's like at least 200 people here it's taking a while, and I happen to be one of the last ones to be called so I have some free time after my friends have to go. these people aren't reappearing either after they go to the "showers" but for some reason I wasn't like distressed or nothing and neither was anyone else. also sometimes if they call someone's name on the intercom incorrectly the entire room would laugh idk why tho. everyone but my friends were lowkey mean. so anyway in this free time I decide to go check out the room areas so I go to my designated place, down the stairs since they're underground, and the place is like. A light color palette, a big living room, no kitchen for some reason, and around 2 hallways was 3 sets of rooms each. for some reason I could just tell this is the area me and my friends were supposed to be at, but my friends weren't there yet. I look at the doors to the bedrooms and rather than having names on them they had concepts which you were 'drawn to' set up in the form of a phrase on a metal plate on the door. the phrase on my door was "to destroy is to create" and I was like huh okay philosophical . and then i left the house area, went back to the purple grass place, and found that while I was down there almost nobody else is left up in the grass area. because of that, obviously me and the last few people in there get called to go to the "showers. and like. I get there and we all go in the door and all the other people disappear as they walk in except for me, it's a single stall shower. and I'm like okay so I do my own thing, showering and whatnot, and then I start to hear that one song from neon Genesis that spread way far out of neon genesis thay goes like "it aallll retuurnsss to noothiingg it all comes tumbling down tumbling down tumbling dooowwn" yeah I start hearing that in my ear. and like as I'm showering I notice myself getting smaller. and I look at myself, turn off the water, and I find that I'm a kid again (age 7ish?). I don't feel disturbed or afraid of this, if anything I felt happy to be alive and stuff because I was a kid. anyway I leave the shower (for some reason I never removed my clothes during this entire process and the clothes I was wearing (pajamas, black and white ones that everyone was wearing) changed to fit my kid body. ) and like. instead of the purple grassy area from before, there is a big big closet. I look around and notice it's all my mom's clothes or stuff that would fit her/stuff she would wear, and then I hear the "to destroy is to create" thing again and all the clothes disassemble themselves. I still am not disturbed or anything by this and I leave the closet eith newfound childish joy and whimsy or whatever. now the grassy area is loaded with people, all in their Child forms like me. me and my friends meet up with each other and we go back down to the rooms. when we enter the doors they all disappear again, I'm still unfazed, and I feel very light and hear my own voice vaguely in my ear going like "I love being alive! I love art! I love my friends! to destroy is to create!" and I'm like OKAY until I realize that I am literally saying those words like I'm moving my mouth to make them. and I'm STILL not uncomfortable by this fact. anyway I go down the stairs again, and I skip my way over to the main room where I find my friends again. they're all in there playing with various objects (there's a weird table in the middle of the place that has toys for ages 5-9 inside a hole in it) and like. I join them and we all play together and we're all really happy and not disturbed by the weird changes we all just went through. like we all WANT to go back to being little kids. we're all happy and childish and whatnot.

then I woke up

what the FUCK

hot take I enjoy toxic ships. not in a "they should be together because it's good" way obv but in a "this is realistic and well written" sort of way. it pisses me off when people are like "oohhh comship comship comship youre bad and a bad person and you should actually kill yourself if you like this abusive ship" SHUT UPP I LIKE IT FOR THE WRITING AND THE HATRED

my personal interesting take as an afab lgbtq+ person who is a victim of discrimination, sexual assault, stalking, and harassment

i don't hate cis people or judge them because theyre cis, same with straight people. i do not inherently hate cis men although i obviously, as an afab, am wary around them, this doesn't prevent me from spreading kindness to them. because of who i am combined with my ability to explain the truth about situations, ive had multiple friends who used to be homophobic, transphobic, etc become supportive (not just of me!) via me talking to them. i don't inherently dislike people because theyre cis, het, etc, i hate people who refuse to adapt their beliefs after being talked to a couple times

unless theyre like a rapist or a pedophile or something. those deserve to rot LOL

but like i get that cis, trans, het, and not het people think differently about things and obviously a lot, if not the majority of cis/het/cishet people are violently homophobic in ways that they refuse to change but i don't assume that everyone automatically is because i don't see a point in wallowing and being angry at the wrong things and the wrong people just because of one group ruining everything for everyone.

i think that everyone should have opportunities that work for them and we shouldn't just be angry at someone because of their identity, this goes for cishet people too!

I just want somebody to play with my dick. It don't matter, blow, just blow my balls, that's all I want, somebody to blow my balls. If you want to, just blow in the pee hole, that's all I want. Just jiggle my dick. I just want somebody to jiggle it, rub it. I just want somebody to TOUCH it. "It's ugly." Yeah, I might got 26 veins on my dick, yeah I count it, but I just want somebody to love my dick.

Your name is HOLYAO OKIYEN. Today is not your wriggling day, but rather your DAY OF ENLIGHTENMENT. 12 sweeps ago today, you crawled out of the mother grub and immediately knew your REAL PURPOSE – Being a PROPHET OF THE DIVINE.

You have a particular interest in CULTS, and you even began your own starting at roughly 9-10 sweeps old. You are particularly good at MANIPULATING PEOPLE, especially those with ‘THICKER SKIN’. It is your goal to FEED YOUR DIVINE DEITY ENOUGH SIN that they will one day come down and RELIEVE the whole world’s TENSION. You are UNWAVERING IN YOUR FAITH.

You are also UNWAVERING IN PERSISTENCE. You like to spend time talking with your friends on TROLLIAN, which you are VERY SKILLED at using. What good of a recruiter would you be if you didn’t know how to use a computer? Most trolls communicate through the internet anyway. You are a bit of a PEOPLE PLEASER. Your personality can BEND AND SHIFT depending on who you are talking to, as you obviously need to do in order to CONVINCE OTHERS TO JOIN YOUR CULT. Your trolltag is charismaticCultist, and you carry yourself in a way that is [Excep♰ionally seduc♰ive and cap♰iva♰ing.]

i went on omegle last summer and like 3 people were like "ouhhhh.... hot sexy latina......." "mmmppffff i love mexicans"

and i was like

"sprry bro im fucking white"