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6/24/25 GODSMACK TITLE ALBUM REVIEW

im just gonna come right out and say this has been one of my all time favorite albums for a WHILE cuz let me tell you almost every song on this SLAPS EVERY SINGLE TIME. i'm gonna do a bunch of posts reviewing my favs and some of my least favs and this is where im starting lmao i own this on CD and have the whole thing downloaded to every device i have

Moon Baby - IMMEDIATE BANGER of course as expected. i love this song its one of my favorites off the album, the beginning clip talking about the conspiracy that the moon has the power to drive people insane fits so well with what the song is about (how much he hates his ex wife lmao) and its just SO PEAK. the instrumental is fantastic as it always is with Godsmack (i'll talk about that more later) and the similarity yet difference between the main vocals and the back vocals sounds so cool and its just lowkey all around great.

Whatever - NOT MY FAV OFF THE ALBUM . i adore the pre-chorus and the second verse but im just honestly not a fan of the chorus or the other verses. BUT!!!!!! the drums in this song are AMAZING by far my favorite part of the instrumental

Keep Away - ANOTHER ONE OF M FAVORITESI i love keep away the chorus is so satisfying and the drums are, as almost always, my favorite part of the instrumental. however, sully's voice in this is GREATTT it 100% tops the instruments in my opinion. the exception to that in this song is near the end of the middle section and the end when sully just goes NUTS on the guitar it sounds so so so cool you dont even know.

Time Bomb - i think this song is great but it feels like blasphemy because i also like last by nine inch nails and like... i love godsmack but this is literally just a rip off of last by nin LMAOO although honestly i still love sully's voice in this and i never wont love it

Bad Religion - THE BACKGROUND VOCALS IN THE CHORUSSSSSSS my favorite part of the song by far just putting that out there right off the bat. this song is definitely in my top 3 off this album and i am not ashamed of that it sounds SO GOODDDD!!! i also really love the rhythm of this song especially the drums. the guitar adds so much as well i love the way they chose to time it in with the beat of the lyrics too

Immune - I REALLY LIKE THE CONTRAST BETWEEN THE VERSES AND THE CHORUS! the guitar and the drums at the end too UUUGGGH its SO GOOD. it sounds almost like a fever dream a little bit and i personally really like it even though it sounds odd to some folks

Someone In London - GODDDD BY FAR ONE OF MY FAVORITES OFF THE ALBUM ALLTOGETHER, AND ONE OF MY FAVORITE INSTRUMENTALS OF ALL TIME. the subway noises in the background set the atmosphere so well and the transition into the bass and of my goddd its so good actually. the way it goes right into get up, get out is also PEAK

Get Up, Get Out - THE TRANSITION FROM SOMEONE IN LONDON TO THE BEGINNING OF THIS SONG ACTUALLY MAKES ME CUM. the verses are SO GOOD and the chorus is so rapidfire it matches the urgent vibe of the song so well which even works with the beggining of someone in london being in a subway station. THE DRUMS TOO GOD THIS SONG IS JUST OVERALL SO GOOD

Now Or Never - NOT a fan of the intro sound before the music when listening on shuffle @ night LMAO but the music in the beginning with the guitar is genuinely peak. i also love the drumbeat sm i adore the way the chorus sounds it sounds like a pattern if that makes sense. the melody is great

Stress - PRETTY GOOD but not the best off the album imo. the instrumental and the vocals definitely help to solidify the feeling of stress so i like it a lot from an artistic standpoint rather than a musical standpoint

Situation - i like the quiet moment before sully's singing in some parts- it really emphasizes the beauty of those part of the song and its SO GOODDD and as always the drums and the guitar/bass are fantastic, and for once i think i highkey like the guitar more than i like the drums which is rather surprising.GODDD i love this song. not a big fan of the ending tho

Voodoo - ONE OF MY ALL TIME FAV SONGS. i love the dead silence with the vocals in the beginning right into some of my favorite drumbeats godsmack has done for any of their songs- its simple but combined with the bass its SO freakin good. the drums getting more intense during the chorus and calming downn again makes for a really nice effect and it tickles my brain so nice. all the verses in this song follow a similar pattern without being repetitive and boring and its kinda impressive to be able to do that lowk. my favorite part of the song is the ending part where it repeats "voodoo" its so satisfying especially to sing.

OVERALL A SOLID 9/10 ALBUM!!

6/23/25 HOW MUCH I HATE LUCIFER VALENTINE **HARD TW!!!

i hate lucifer valentine so much and so should everyone who reads this. he's a worse than garbage piece of shit human who deserves to actually rot

OK lets start here. lucifer valentine is a director of literal snuff vomit gore tapes and he calls them "movies". this is like calling a grapefruit an orange. the only reasonable film that ever came from this man's brain is black metal veins, which is a disturbingly accurate movie about 20-something year olds and their (bad) experiences with drugs- which is the only good thing you can say about this dude. he made a good artsy film about why drugs are bad for you. his other more well known movies are the three films that are part of the "vomit gore saga", and I'm gonna start by talking about those.

"slaughtered vomit dolls" is the first movie in the trilogy, and it was released in 2006 (this was a bad era to be in if you were trying not to see crazy shit on the internet, but this was worse than the average shock website or whatever). it's about this girl named Angela Aberdeen (played by Ameara Lavey) who is in a hard situation in her life and starts doing sex work (and becoming satanist i guess?? i'm pretty sure that's another one of lucifer valentine's fetishes. there's a lot of hell and demon and satan talk) to try and make enough money to survive. Angela has bullimia, and it gets worse and worse throughout the movie (the vomit part) and it gets to the point where she starts to see full on hallucinations of her coworkers and other people dying in graphic ways (the gore part). the movie ends with Angela commiting suicide via drowning in her bathtub.

now you may be wondering, how could he possibly make another two films with the same girl as the main character if she literally kills herself on screen in the first movie? easy! he has the next movies set in LITERAL HELL

the second film is "ReGOREgitated Sacrifice", and it takes place, as I said, in LITERAL HELL. Angela is still bullimic and the entire movie consists of Angela being sexually tortured (and regularly tortured) by two succubi, once again, in ACTUAL HELL for the entire disgusting 1 hour and 5 minutes. there is absolutely nothing of value to this movie and it's the same gross shit as the last one. the last film in the trilogy is "slow torture puke chamber" (somehow EVEN CORNIER name than the other two movies btw) and the whole thing is just Angela talking about her screwed up childhood while she gets sexually tortured and it's literally just evil and tragic and vile shit with no plot or concern behind it.

OK, now that we've covered the movies themselves, let's talk about the people. Lucifer Valentine is a vile and fucked up man who takes advantage of every woman he meets. let's start with his sister. lucifer has a younger, autistic, legally blind sister under his care named cinderella. in the behind the scenes cuts of slaughtered vomit dolls, lucifer said that cinderella was his "girlfriend" and that she "wanted to marry him some day". this is disturbing behavior that lucifer is reciprocating back to his sister. he also had a sexual relationship with her, which is disgusting- cinderella committed suicide on december 31st, 2006, and lucifer said it was "because she was jealous" when he was away from her. Lucifer also consistently abused his main actress, Ameara Lavey. For some context, Ameara was a hardcore porn actress and was heavily addicted to drugs. She ended up getting kicked out of her father's house, and she knew she had to quit, but she had nobody to turn to other than Lucifer. Lucifer manipulated her into making a disgusting deal; he would give her housing and food and help her get off drugs *if* she did anything that he wanted. lucifer described it as a "24/7 total power exchange relationship", implying that lucifer had full control over ameara. he also said that the first movie, slaughtered vomit dolls, was born from this deal. he took advantage of her while she was in a bad situation and it's disgusting. ameara ended up getting murdered at age 34 in 2017, she and another person were murdered in a double homicide. Ameara was a victim, a mother of 3, a wife, and so much more to so many people, and Lucifer still obsesses over her today- She's even his twitter profile picture. (disgusting). Lucifer also has various accusations from plenty of other young women in his area, most of them saying that Lucifer did things like ask them to send videos of them throwing up, telling them they'll let them star in one of his movies once they turn 18, etc, etc.

TLDR: lucifer valentine is a piece of shit excuse for a human

6/20/25 THE 3 SHITTY BULLY SONGS KANYE DROPPED

OK so kanye decided to release 3 songs off of bully today and theyre all kinda shitty ai slop. only one has potential tbh

preacher man - weirdass background vocals but thats just a personal preference thing i think, kanyes vocals are also kinda dick it sounds fake because it is. lyrics arent the worst but its also really monotonous imo nothing really changes throughout the song until the very end. shit

beauty and the beast - starts off okay, i like the background vocals and kanyes definitely not ai trust vocals a lot better in this one. like preacher man nothing really changes and its just the same thing no real climax its not the best not the worst

damn - i fw the beginning but thats it. not that bad i guess but once again all buildup with nothing at the end of it. the last part of the song also ends really abruptly it feels weird

overall: i hope he fixes these songs when he releases all of bully cuz as of right now these all sound like looking at an empty room with a single chair in the center

6/17/25 HIGH IDIOTS ON THE BUS

bf got high for the first time earlier and he was like "ooh this ain't SHIT" 2 seconds after his 2nd hit and then 5 minutes later he was dead weight trying not to fall asleep on my shoulder ((in a good way dw)) and i was just like AWWEE

there's something so nice about having someone lean on you like that. the way he just hugs my waist and is like "Oh my fos this is great"

and then he went on for like 30 seconds about how great my outfits are and how he loves em and how I always look good in everything

i like him a little bit

6/15/2025 FIT FOR TODAY

5/17/25 RANT ABOUT LACK OF PRODUCTIVITY

you know I'm always like "omg finally a day where i have nothing to do" then the day comes and I hate it because I'm not doing anything

literally I've been sitting on my couch doing jack shit since 9 in the morning [aside from making Ramen to eat]

I ain't got no work or nothing no friends to visit today it's legit just me and it's so boring and also unproductive which makes me feel grossssss

I just showered tho so that's chill

5/2/25 WEIRD ASS DREAM

OK so it starts with me, a few friends (though they aren't really relevant) and like an unknown large amount of other people being moved into this weird flat, open space with short purple grass and stone walls with no ceiling. while we HAVE to be in this place, we were still allowed to bring our stuff, and we even have little room things underground that are quite nice but I'll get to that shortly. In this weird purple grass place there's like an intercom system? where they call groups of people at a time to go to "the showers" (not sure where the door to get there is tbh). obviously since there's like at least 200 people here it's taking a while, and I happen to be one of the last ones to be called so I have some free time after my friends have to go. these people aren't reappearing either after they go to the "showers" but for some reason I wasn't like distressed or nothing and neither was anyone else. also sometimes if they call someone's name on the intercom incorrectly the entire room would laugh idk why tho. everyone but my friends were lowkey mean. so anyway in this free time I decide to go check out the room areas so I go to my designated place, down the stairs since they're underground, and the place is like. A light color palette, a big living room, no kitchen for some reason, and around 2 hallways was 3 sets of rooms each. for some reason I could just tell this is the area me and my friends were supposed to be at, but my friends weren't there yet. I look at the doors to the bedrooms and rather than having names on them they had concepts which you were 'drawn to' set up in the form of a phrase on a metal plate on the door. the phrase on my door was "to destroy is to create" and I was like huh okay philosophical . and then i left the house area, went back to the purple grass place, and found that while I was down there almost nobody else is left up in the grass area. because of that, obviously me and the last few people in there get called to go to the "showers. and like. I get there and we all go in the door and all the other people disappear as they walk in except for me, it's a single stall shower. and I'm like okay so I do my own thing, showering and whatnot, and then I start to hear that one song from neon Genesis that spread way far out of neon genesis thay goes like "it aallll retuurnsss to noothiingg it all comes tumbling down tumbling down tumbling dooowwn" yeah I start hearing that in my ear. and like as I'm showering I notice myself getting smaller. and I look at myself, turn off the water, and I find that I'm a kid again (age 7ish?). I don't feel disturbed or afraid of this, if anything I felt happy to be alive and stuff because I was a kid. anyway I leave the shower (for some reason I never removed my clothes during this entire process and the clothes I was wearing (pajamas, black and white ones that everyone was wearing) changed to fit my kid body. ) and like. instead of the purple grassy area from before, there is a big big closet. I look around and notice it's all my mom's clothes or stuff that would fit her/stuff she would wear, and then I hear the "to destroy is to create" thing again and all the clothes disassemble themselves. I still am not disturbed or anything by this and I leave the closet eith newfound childish joy and whimsy or whatever. now the grassy area is loaded with people, all in their Child forms like me. me and my friends meet up with each other and we go back down to the rooms. when we enter the doors they all disappear again, I'm still unfazed, and I feel very light and hear my own voice vaguely in my ear going like "I love being alive! I love art! I love my friends! to destroy is to create!" and I'm like OKAY until I realize that I am literally saying those words like I'm moving my mouth to make them. and I'm STILL not uncomfortable by this fact. anyway I go down the stairs again, and I skip my way over to the main room where I find my friends again. they're all in there playing with various objects (there's a weird table in the middle of the place that has toys for ages 5-9 inside a hole in it) and like. I join them and we all play together and we're all really happy and not disturbed by the weird changes we all just went through. like we all WANT to go back to being little kids. we're all happy and childish and whatnot.

then I woke up

what the FUCK

3/9/25 FLOWER PICTURE...

3/2/25 COOL OUTFIT

3/1/25 FIT FROM THE OTHER DAY

12/28/24 ?!?!

12/21/24 TOXIC SHIPS

hot take I enjoy toxic ships. not in a "they should be together because it's good" way obv but in a "this is realistic and well written" sort of way. it pisses me off when people are like "oohhh comship comship comship youre bad and a bad person and you should actually kill yourself if you like this abusive ship" SHUT UPP I LIKE IT FOR THE WRITING AND THE HATRED

12/4/24 A TAKE EVERYONE SHOULD AGREE WITH BUT THEY DONT

my personal interesting take as an afab lgbtq+ person who is a victim of discrimination, sexual assault, stalking, and harassment

i don't hate cis people or judge them because theyre cis, same with straight people. i do not inherently hate cis men although i obviously, as an afab, am wary around them, this doesn't prevent me from spreading kindness to them. because of who i am combined with my ability to explain the truth about situations, ive had multiple friends who used to be homophobic, transphobic, etc become supportive (not just of me!) via me talking to them. i don't inherently dislike people because theyre cis, het, etc, i hate people who refuse to adapt their beliefs after being talked to a couple times

unless theyre like a rapist or a pedophile or something. those deserve to rot LOL

but like i get that cis, trans, het, and not het people think differently about things and obviously a lot, if not the majority of cis/het/cishet people are violently homophobic in ways that they refuse to change but i don't assume that everyone automatically is because i don't see a point in wallowing and being angry at the wrong things and the wrong people just because of one group ruining everything for everyone.

i think that everyone should have opportunities that work for them and we shouldn't just be angry at someone because of their identity, this goes for cishet people too!

11/26/24 FIRE ASS OUTFIT

9/22/24 PIRATE OUTFIT

9/8/24 FAVORITE COPYPASTA

I just want somebody to play with my dick. It don't matter, blow, just blow my balls, that's all I want, somebody to blow my balls. If you want to, just blow in the pee hole, that's all I want. Just jiggle my dick. I just want somebody to jiggle it, rub it. I just want somebody to TOUCH it. "It's ugly." Yeah, I might got 26 veins on my dick, yeah I count it, but I just want somebody to love my dick.

8/6/24 A HOMESTUCK TROLL OC INTRO!!

Your name is HOLYAO OKIYEN. Today is not your wriggling day, but rather your DAY OF ENLIGHTENMENT. 12 sweeps ago today, you crawled out of the mother grub and immediately knew your REAL PURPOSE – Being a PROPHET OF THE DIVINE.

You have a particular interest in CULTS, and you even began your own starting at roughly 9-10 sweeps old. You are particularly good at MANIPULATING PEOPLE, especially those with ‘THICKER SKIN’. It is your goal to FEED YOUR DIVINE DEITY ENOUGH SIN that they will one day come down and RELIEVE the whole world’s TENSION. You are UNWAVERING IN YOUR FAITH.

You are also UNWAVERING IN PERSISTENCE. You like to spend time talking with your friends on TROLLIAN, which you are VERY SKILLED at using. What good of a recruiter would you be if you didn’t know how to use a computer? Most trolls communicate through the internet anyway. You are a bit of a PEOPLE PLEASER. Your personality can BEND AND SHIFT depending on who you are talking to, as you obviously need to do in order to CONVINCE OTHERS TO JOIN YOUR CULT. Your trolltag is charismaticCultist, and you carry yourself in a way that is [Excep♰ionally seduc♰ive and cap♰iva♰ing.]